Two years after separating from my twin flame, I still felt trapped in a frightening existence I couldn’t run from. Every waking moment of separation was spent in emotional anguish, wishing that I would just die. My heart and soul were in pieces, my stomach churned constantly, and silent misery was my constant companion. Nobody understood what I was going through. I felt separated from my own soul.
Those who have never had a deep twin flame relationship will never understand, but those who do will know exactly what I am talking about. Reading a thousand books on the topic still wouldn’t enlighten those who have never tasted such divine love. That’s the reason why it can get so lonely. Trying to explain your predicament to someone who hasn’t had such a relationship is meaningless. They’d simply label you a nutcase and often you have to suffer the separation alone. There are times I even questioned my own sanity.
My head was constantly spinning with past thoughts and memories; all I saw was my twin flames face everywhere I went. I was caught in an endless chase for something that I could never have. My loss of my twin flame led me into an abyss that was as magical as it was devastating. My eyes were opened to who I was and who I needed to become to change my life and reunite with my twin flame again.
The lessons learned during my time with my twin flame and separated from him were profound. They were the deepest soul, love and relationship lessons. I have and will always emphasize this: It is impossible to unshackle yourself from all your twin flame expectations until you learn all the lessons. It is the only way to release ourselves from our ego which creates the separation, so we can come into true love which unites us with our twin flames. No matter how far you run, the universe will not let up until you complete all the tests.
How do we learn these lessons? Well, we have to look within, further than we have ever dared look before. Deep contemplation is the only solution. Through it, we decipher the patterns that make up our relationships with our families and significant others. Self-reflection will show us the lessons we need to learn, and what has been preventing us from giving and receiving love accordingly. Our twin flame will mirror it all back to us for growth. EVERYTHING will be shown to us in the light of day.
The most common lesson to be learned is known as Enmeshment. This is described as a situation where one partner immerses themselves into the other, caring only for what they think and want. There is nothing you won’t do to for them; you want to save them, heal them. They complete you and without them you would cease to exist, or so your ego makes you believe... but that is an illusion, one of many. This is co-dependency and there comes a time when you don’t even matter to yourself, happiness be damned. This is a major lesson to be overcome. One must loves themselves fully before they can unite with their twin flame.
Think back to when you separated from your twin flame. What went through your mind? Did you become suicidal? Did you constantly focus on your twin flame's needs, actions? I practically existed in a miasma of anguish, misery, and despair for two years because I refused to love myself in the way I needed to and instead thought I could only get that love from my twin flame. WRONG. Firstly we MUST give ourselves that love or we could never accept and receive it from our twin flame.
This brutal separation from our twin flame is how the universe tests us and teaches us the lesson of Enmeshment/co-dependency. It is an extremely tough journey to take but we are chosen to take this bitter pill because we are stronger than most.
I most certainly would have died from it if I weren’t so strong. I am sure some of you have felt the same way before. The world dims, yet we are required to push on. We overcome it all because we are stronger than we think. The twin flame journey may try and test us to our absolute limits, but we always come through it.
The Divine love that we have for our twin flame shines a divine and wonderful path for us to follow and reach our bliss in full consciousness. Our destinies call upon us to fight to illuminate the world with Love and that is the purpose of this temporary separation. We will pass the tests with flying colours and be reunited in our Eternal Bliss.